This months challenge did not go to plan! Shortly after my first week of practicing the meditation I was taken sick with Bronchitis, which had me laid up in bed for more than a week and I am still recovering from it now 2+ weeks on. When you do not have your health, you really have nothing. All of your plans and dreams just stop. It became so clear to me that we rarely value our health, it's only when our health is compromised that we stop and realise that our body is no longer working. This is great to help us take a step back, re-evaluate and make positive changes.
Luckily my sickness was not brought on by lack of taking care of myself. While I was travelling and exploring Sofia, Bulgaria I decided to hike Vitosha Mountain, during the hike we got caught in a terrible thunder storm and unfortunately I was not prepared for rain, so I ended up drenched! I am not sure any one of us would have survived without catching a little chill. This is how I ended up stuck in bed with Bronchitis. I must admit that my energy levels are still fairly low but I am almost back to my full health which I am so grateful for.
So NEWSFLASH - I am human! I broke my challenge this month, which I am okay with. At first it was a little scary and disappointing realising I wasn't able to complete this month, but I found the grace in it. It is a positive thing to remember we are not perfect and despite our best intentions we occasionally fall off of the wagon. Also I was able to recognise that my priorities are changable, as you can imagine the challenge was not a priority to me during this time, tending to myself and clearing up the virus was. I want this blog to be raw, to be real and to help with others growth so being honest and allowing you to see my imperfections will hopefully inspire you. It's good to be human! I love that this post can promote the realness of life.
As I feel I did get some benefits from the short time I practiced this meditation I thought I would post with what I did learn. Along with some of the other experiments and updates I have from this past month.
My first experience in beginning the challenge was that after 3 or 4 days I became very emotional, it was clear that any negative emotions I was holding onto were clearing themselves. I became quite sad and I cried a fair amount. This lasted for 2 or 3 days and then I felt so much better. It was interesting to find that as humans we tend to hold onto things that do not serve us and it is important to practice and cultivate a practice to let go.
I began to have some incredible moments of self-realisation becoming more aware of how I was conducting myself and my life. Any problems or niggles I needed to address became much more prominent and I was able to think through these things that I had potentially neglected in the past and make changes.
I most definitely experienced a sense of inner peace. I was generally starting my day off with this meditation and I enjoyed this as part of my morning routine. It just set my day off on the right foot. I felt happier and more free within myself - which is never a bad thing!
It is good for us to have time to be still, although I was unable to fulfill my challenge my sickness forced me into a similar type of stillness. This allowed me time to do some clear thinking which in turn led me to these other self growth activities, read below about what else I have been experimenting with this month.
Thank you for reading and supporting my journey of inner growth!
With love & gratitude.