It's surprising other people's views and opinions on this months challenge. I actually realised this challenge was less about me and more about raising awareness to others.
Switching off my phone on the 28 February was harsh. I was prepping myself by responding to any last minute messages and letting friends and family know about the challenge and how they could contact me during the month. A surge of anxiety hit! How could I do this? It was impossible, surely I wouldn't last the whole month. I calmed myself by remembering there were others that survive just fine without phones.
A little self talk goes a long way - I am always very determined with my challenges as I want to make the most of the experience but at the same time we must also be gentle with ourselves so I never want to be a slave to the challenges I select.
I fell into this challenge with such ease, day 1 was a breeze, as have been all of the days so far. I realised this challenge is not so much about me not having a phone its more about how I interact with the rest of the world who do have phones. Some people look at me like I am crazy, others support me and think it is cool.
WE ARE ALWAYS ON OUR PHONES!
When you don't have a phone you notice how many people do have one! How many people hold them in their hand and check them during conversations, meetings and dinner. I actually started to find it frightening. How can we connect with each other if we are constantly engaged with our phones?
On day 5 I witnessed something heartbreaking. A couple entered the cafe and sat down on the table opposite me, both with phones in hand. The lady put her phone away but the man continued to use his, scrolling aimlessly. She played with her hair and fixed her makeup in order to get his attention. He continued to text, scroll and not pay a moments attention to her. She continued to wonder why? He then took a phone call and signaled to her it was time to leave. I have continued to observe this scenario multiple times and it saddens me that we are no longer connected as humans.
"I could NEVER do that"
If I had a £1 for everytime someone told me "I could never do that" I would be a rich lady by now. I find it quite amusing how I manage to shock most people. They always question me, how do you live like that? My favourite response of late is, "my heart still beats, want to feel it?" Most cannot imagine an hour without their phone, let alone a month. They usually get freaked out when I talk about my challenge, I think they are worried I am going to take theirs from them! Food for thought I say.
Alternatively I have had some situations where by I have explained that I would prefer to email since I do not have a phone. Example conversation goes like this...
Person #1 "What do you mean you don't have a phone? It's broken?"
"No" I say, " I don't have one"
Person #1 "What do you mean? No phone"
"I decided to trial a month without one, I quite like it" I continue with enthusiasm
Person #1 - Left confused...
Surprisingly I have not had any withdrawal symptoms. I don't really miss it to be honest. Despite the anxiety I experienced the night before I began this challenge I haven't felt anything negative about what I am doing. If anything I feel far more peaceful and I am noticing how many ideas and thoughts I have.
Thank you for reading and supporting my journey of inner growth!
With love & gratitude.